老餅范

The heading seems not quite appropriate because I have the eldest daughter also, but I really think about the issue of nurturing 2 male kids seriously. As a father, a role model, being calm and sentimental, is extremely important to shape up the two boys' good characters.

Gordon, our second child, has sometimes special characteristics and behaviour. I always need to remind myself that, he's special in personality and needs, not his behaviour. I have to look for his special characteristics rather than his behaviour. It's not easy, but necessary. Recently I was consciously aware of treating him calmly and gently, letting him know how a good gentleman should be.

Xin Ming is not our expectation, but is really our source of joyfulness. Now he's 6 months old and can sit straight for minutes. He always carries a good and big smile, giving us relaxed and joyful moments at home. His elder sister and brother really like him so much.

That's an important part of my life!!

It's stupid to think back to the past.

But it's real that, if I haven't got married, haven't got any kids, I couldn't imagine how my life would be now.

It's what I think and feel. Every step in our life, every, do means something, big or small, crucial or trivial; but it means something.

So, going back to so many years ago. If I hadn't gone to Beijing with Yee Fun (at that time she's my girlfriend), then I wouldn't have been unemployed, and wouldn't have been a tutor of a group of mothers, and of course, got no chance of being a teacher.


It's such a tragedy that I couldn't have been a teacher. My life will be with little colours and good memories thereafter.

I like my job, my role of being a teacher, not only because I like talking. Sometimes I like being alone, sitting around the corner and reading a book only.

But I enjoy getting my life with some youngsters. They affect me, and I affect them. Once we engage with one another, it's so interesting.

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I love Yee Fun, though we've encountered some difficulties recently. Xin Ming was not our priority and expectation and yet, his coming is a precious gift, a lovely gift from God. He's the heaviest among our kids, the happiest, and the most lovely, making us release some burden in family affairs.

I cannot deny that a man should bear more responsibility of "making" a new member to the family, cos he's taken initiative, rite?

Yee Fun has been changing and adapting a lot, that's what I appreciate it.

She's going to work part-time next month, giving up her ambitious career. She made a decision of sacrifying her career to the family.

I really owe her.

She gave birth of three, not easy huh! And giving birth is quite detrimental to her health.

Thank you Yee Fun, and gave our family the three lovely kids.

I have to admit that my son, Xin Pei has a special character. He has his own favourites towards a lot of things, and seldom changes the preference. He is left-handed, using his left hand for most of the things. His emotion comes quickly, and sometimes vigorously. He's smart, and sometimes tells lies with a lovely smile. Though he's lying, it's not easy for me to punish him, especially when he gives you a lovely and handsome smile.

He's handsome, yes, but also very timid. He never sees somebody directly, but is improving. He's weak also in differentiating colours, according to his good visual arts teacher from The Big Apple, but now, I find him gradually improving. He can differentiate some difficult colours and dares to speak out the colours directly.

As a father, sometimes I lose my temper towards him. I beat him several times and sometimes, was quite rude to him. But I really found that being rude and vigorously to him is useless, which in turn, more reactive and vigorous from him. Instead, being gentle to him is very helpful and useful.

Our friend Emily, who's counselor at work, claims he's not an easy child to raise. She observes him for an evening where we spent a good night at her hourse. Well, I admit it true but nothing is 100% sure. God never promise us a good and easy life, but He promise us to have him lead the way along. That's more than enough.

Xin Pei got his name Gordon. He likes listening to Thomas the stories but now, not anymore but the Superman (the Japanese one).

He really likes his sister, Sammi. I and Yee Fun really hope, and believe they'll be good siblings, with the youngest, Xin Ming, that even though one day, we two go back to God's place, they can still live cohesively, and peacefully, and with perseverance.

What I have to do is to try best keep myself in good health, making myself not so emotional. That's important.

Last Tuesday I had dinner with some of my students, who were graduates of year 1996-98. Wow, time passes so fast that, all of them were in late twenties. They still called me "Fan sir" and respected me so much.

I always talked to my current students that I really enjoyed the moments with the students who were categorised band 3. At least, they always respected the teachers and appreciated them relatively easily.

In the dinner, we chatted and talked about the life at school ten years ago, and of course, talked about the current situations.

Coincidentally, I received a call the day after. She's San, a F. 1 student when I taught them English. It's nine years from now when I taught them. San said once I mentioned about meeting together in ten years' time. I totally forgot what I said, but they got it in mind!! Next Wednesday we will be meeting and dining together. San and the other classmates tried very best to co-ordinate the activity and now there're almost 29 students promising to turn up, with Miss Lam Suk-wun, the Chinese Lang. teacher.

I look forward to seeing them. They've been part of my life, and I had wonderful moments with them. I missed them, and missed the teaching life in Pak U.

Thanks God that I can refresh my lovely and sweet memory, always, in my life. Probably I'm old enough to start thinking of my past.

Thank you myself.

It's been a month since I have written my blog. It's not easy for a non-HSSC person to imagine how busy we are in doing the marking job. Well, finally we did it. Next week, I will receive another 70 scripts for the 1st assignment on Section 4, and 4 more to come before the final exam., plus 2 common tests. All assignments and common tests require us to mark in details.

Yesterday, I left school at 4.30pm sharp. I didn't have so much good chance to leave the office on time, though other few colleagues can do so almost every single school day (probably I work so inefficiently!!).

I picked up my two kids, rushed back home, and then went out for exercise!! They rode bicyles and I jogged!! First we ran along the Lam Tsuen River, then we went along the way to Waterfront Park. We stopped twice to see the beautiful views of Tolo Harbour, and also the flying birds. The weather was fabulous also before sunset and we (including my eldest daughter and my second son) all enjoyed the moments. They always cycled with smile, and so was I.

We made a goal that we should ride and run till the far end of the Park next time. We're anxious to wait for another moment to come.

Thank God. At least my two (and in fact, 3) kids are so healthy and lovely. They're physically and mentally fit and good enough, and so am I. Thank God to give us such precious moments to be together. I really enjoy it.